I have lost the same 20 or so pounds maybe 3 or 4 times now. I have worked so hard to get rid of them and then without effort, every last pound finds me. Perhaps you have had a similar experience.
I really debated hard about losing the weight again so I would look half decent at my son’s wedding this summer. There are a few things I have come to realize though. One is: none of my kids love me any better if I wear size 8. Secondly, I do not want to be counting points. What I really would like to address is why I reach for cookies and sometimes chips to bring me comfort when I feel lonely or bored or I don’t even know what.
I am on day 4 of a book called “The 40 Day Sugar Fast” by Wendy Speak, and I also bought a book called “Full, Food, Jesus and the Battle for Satisfaction” by Asheritah Ciuciu.
I have tried the Sugar Fast before and failed miserably, and I am only about half way through the book called Full. Here is what I am doing this time that is different… This time I decided to actually ask the hard questions like, “where do I honestly find comfort?” Personally, I do not love the question. I know that I have run to cookies or chips many times over the years. While losing a few pounds would be great, what would be even greater would be to run to God for comfort and not the comfort that food offers which only lasts a little while.
I have changed my focus this time and am looking to God to be exactly what the Bible says He is: my comfort. I have looked to God for all kinds of help and comfort over the years but often with a cookie in my hand. I took quite a while this morning and talked over this entire topic with Jesus. I am on day 4 of no sugar. So far, so good. I will do this one day at a time as frankly thinking of 40 days of “no thank you” seems a bit overwhelming.
1 Corinthians 1:3 “All praise to God, the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. God is our merciful Father and the source of ALL comfort.”
Does this mean I will never eat sugar again? NO! I just want to get to the place where I can eat a piece of cake because there is something to celebrate and not because it is filling a need that really only God can fill.
I asked God what He had to say to me about all this and here is what I heard “ I want to be the One you run to for comfort and satisfaction, allow food to nourish you, not the other things”.
I liked His advice.He has everything needed.
Let me know if you want to join me in this quest. I am sure there are others who have found themselves on a similar journey.
Dear Father,
Forgive me Father for looking to food to be my comfort in whatever I am facing instead of you. I come to you and ask for your help in this. My I look to you Father, one day at a time. Thank you for loving me no matter what.
In Jesus Name,
Amen